I dunno what I'm feeling now. I just feel... fucked up & disappointed & really really sad. Is it too much to ask for? Just for you to spend the weekends with me? I mean hey, you get 5 days with those friends of yours & less than 2 days with me. And I don't even complain that I don't have enough time with you.

Now that you're having your outfield, I look forward to you calling me on the phone. But when you do call, its all about this friend & that friend & oh, you wanna go hang out at this pub with them & go to some thai disco with dunno who. Isn't that eating up your weekend alr? I know you're booking out on Thursday but so what? Didn't we plan to do things on Friday? But now you're saying you're gna meet them first thing in the morning then head to some pub. WTF?

I guess I'm not important enough. I know, you say you just want me to tag along so that it'll solve everything. I'm sorry, I'm not keen. Firstly, its not the first time this is happening so I know that if I go, its like as if I'm not there at all. Whats the meaning if I went, right? Cos I'll just be like some dog tagging along behind & not making a sound. So stupid. And what are you saying about me being able to make friends with them? Ok, so if we become friends, what next? We're just in different frequencies here alright? Its not that I'm not keen but ugh, nvm you won't understand anyway, since you're not a girl & I'm not a guy.

Forget it. I don't even know what the meaning of wearing this 'thing' ard my finger stand for, y'know. Honestly. But if you want it your way then I'll give it to you. I shouldn't be the cause of you losing your friends anymore. Right? Since I was the one who started it. I shouldn't make your life suck even more. So go have fun, go to pubs, drink till you get wasted, I don't give a damn. Bcos I guess this is what you really want & I'm not going to resist anymore. I'll just go with the flow.

I don't know what this relationship is coming to anymore.

Its been awhile, yes I know. So anyway, finally went swimming today & I feel extremely accomplished :) Initially when I started, I couldn't even last one lap -.- Felt like such a loser I swear but I managed to warm up to those laps & everything. I actually am pretty happy that I now can go a few laps without struggling for air :) Rachel Koh, you abandoned me so you're supposed to go swimming with me the next time I go! It felt nice that there was no one at all it felt like as if the pool was mine, in a way la.

Its only the first week of the holidays & this week (so far) has seen me being on the computer for almost the entire day & watching tv. Basically slacking ard the house becoming some fat sack. This isn't good, I knowwww. But there really isn't anything to do =/ I'm thinking of going jogging tmr morning but I really dunno if it'll happen. I'm feeling so sleepy now. Maybe cos I slept late last night & got up super early today.

Congrats Povan on passing your BTT I hope you get your license soon so you can drive me ard when I need some mode of transport! Haha kidding! :) Was nice having you over at my house today (ok sounds weird much) but yeah la, playing with my guinea pig blah blah blah ok 'nuff said.

I seriously don't understand the weather its driving me crazy? It actually poured just now but it lasted less than 10 minutes, how pathetic? It wasn't even cooling or anything, just the smell of rain is all. Ugh omg feeling sooo tired =/

Oh yeah, has anyone seen the new Pringles flavours?

and apparently there's another Lemon + something else I can't rmb. I saw it today while buying some food from Cold Storage. I tried googling it but nothing came up. Hmmm... Seems like its relatively new? I have no idea. Whatever it is, I still have yet to try the rest of the new Pringles flavours. I know right, I'm like how bloody backdated :(

K think I've got a new "mission" oh whatever.

Oh yeah, one more thing before I go: All the best to everyone taking their A level results tmr at 2pm! All the best to you, bitch! You know you'll make it so don't panic. Love you much

K then, dinner's calling. Yong Tau Foo, FTW!!!