1:12 AM - Thursday, May 21, 2009
i'm feeling very, very, very angry now. no seriously, i don't think anyone can probably understand how i feel now, unless they actually go through it themselves. i am feeling extremely disappointed and... omg i really don't know. i just wanna go to sleep now.
maybe i shouldn't be talking about this, it'll only make things worse than they already are. i guess he doesn't really see me as an important person in his life, only taking me for granted. if his friends are gone one day, it'll most prob impact him a lot. but if lets say if i go, he'll most prob grief for a few days then its the same thing again. you know? i just feel like he doesn't really care about this thing that we have. if he doesn't see us falling apart then i think he's not taking this seriously.
so... on a lighter note, school was fine today :) and quite shiok, no school tmr! hehe. lessons were ok, a little boring, as usual. ha and that stupid fucking bitch teacher complained to our CP that we haven't been attending lectures. like wtf? why only this particular subject, and why only us? wtf. so we had to meet our CP today to get a lecture from her, in public. now we have to be escorted to lecture every week for sure. knn! srsly, its damn stupid. gosh.
now that she's doing this to us, i'm probably gna hate OC more than ever la. :( whats more we've got to attend remedial this friday, thought i could skip school on friday but seems like i can't. school's taking too much of my time =/ i know la, i'm a student, school is supposed to be taking all my time, hehh. ok, sorry, i'm starting to talk rubbish.
hmm.. i hope tmr will be a better day. toodles, i'm gna head into bed now. forget about waiting for that jerk to come. like as if i have nothing better to do, just fucking wait for him all the time. i can't stand it anymore, i just want to... forget everything.
