11:22 PM - Sunday, May 10, 2009
too lazy to use the scanner, hehh.
ok, so my 1 week break is over & i am extremely upset about it. sighh :( i'll have to go back to school, face the shit that all the students have been facing. i'm really not looking forward to school, really. i heard primary to jc students don't have school tmr, but unfortunately, we, the poly kids have to return to school =/ ahhhh fuck.
OC test tmr, during lecture i suppose. i dont really know what to study for so i'm just gna go to school tmr & whack. or maybe try to get some hints uh. and the best thing is that i dont have the OC tutorial paper, tutorial is tmr. KNN. :( ok i go see tutorial now. fuck la, nb.
i feel so fed up now, i can't really explain why. i haven't seen Adam all day even though i stayed over last night. cos i thought we could've met up for dinner but he had to be @ his grandma's house bcos today's Mother's day. so i stayed home after meeting the parents for lunch @ Dhoby, then went to Bugis to walk ard bcos my brother was having tuition near there.
wish i could lead the life of my brother, i mean, minus the gangster part. he's so carefree, he doesn't have to worry about anything. anything related to school: teachers, grades, homework, waking up early. while i have to worry abt all these, and trying my best NOT to fail? :( he's out now, he can come home any time he pleases, smoke in the house, blahblah. UNFAIR.
yeah i know i shouldnt be comparing to my younger brother, bcos i should be setting the example. I SET THE EXAMPLE, DAMMIT. but he's not following, so what can i say? i just wish my life would be easier =/ sigghh. i'm extremely upset, really. why do i feel like crying? is it just one of those days or have i really lost my mind? i need to go on a vaca
tion. like seriously serious shit. plus there's frequent temperature taking, 2 sessions. wtfz. -.-
ok, i should stop complaining. time to get some sleep. i hope tmr will be an awesome day (i'm really hoping) bcos its a Monday & Mondays roughly gauge how my week will turn out like. i miss Adam so much, i guess i'd feel better if he were here to give me a nice big warm hug, everything would turn out better. uggghhhh. i miss you baby. :(
hmm.. kthen, off i go.
